I need a plan.

 I desperately need to do something productive >_<

I really need a plan.

Currently. working out on and off ._.

I know, I know

Self-discipline is number one in dieting but I love you...food.

Hahah.

My body weight is normal though but I want to be under weight T.T

I was once under weight back then but I unconsciously gain weight until my BMI is normal.

Urgh.

Life is for sure not easy...

The title of this post says it all.
Things become more and more complicated as I grow older.
Being a 20 years old, it feels so different.
It's like I'm living a whole new level of life with a completely different type of responsibility.
 It sounds so complicated, right?
 That is what exactly I'm trying to tell.
Complicated.
Can things even getting any worse than it is?
I hope they don't :/
To be honest, inferiority complex scares me out.
Yes, it does.
 The fear of...
not winning,
not being number 1,
not being able getting the things that I have ever wanted,
not achieving my dreams,
makes me sleepless.
The only thing I can do is that to always PRAY and never stops praying because only God knows what is the best for us.
My mom once told me that I PRAY is better than I WISH.

Insecurities

Insecurities.

I have never liked this word but there is no one who could ever avoid from feeling insecure.

I hate to admit that at times I do feel insecure about certain things.

You know, the feelings of whether or not you know what you are doing.

I never would want to tell myself in the future something like this.. 

"I have regretted of blah..blah..blah.."

I'm not the type of person who would stop half way and not finishing things up 

or being a coward and scared of moving forward

instead I'll never let my fear stop me from believing in my dreams and make it happens 

but

things has changed.

I have no idea why am I discourage and feeling insecure...sometimes.

Haih.

I'm not the kind of person who would easily open up my heart and speak up my mind though.

Maybe that's the reason why it kind of makes things worse ><

 I'm trying my best to overcome all these matters and move on :)

All I know is that I CAN DO IT 

and NOTHING CAN STOP ME FROM ACHIEVING MY DREAMS <3  ^^

My favourite quote which made my day every single time I'm feeling down..

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail."

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Bye Bye 2011 :) and Hello 2012

A lot of things had happened for the past 365 days.

The good memories which made me smile and the bad one which had never let me stop crying.

Well, all those memories mean a lot to me as it makes me who I am today :)

Yes, I'm no longer the girl who will cry over little things that happen but indeed I am a stronger girl than who I was.

Those experiences which caused my tears to keep on falling made me realize what the world mean to me.

It's not about comparing yourself with others...for instance...

how much money you have/earn

 or 

how smart you are 

or 

I wanna have a better bf/gf than that person's partner

 or 

the I'm better than you thingy
or 
other nonsense stuffs =_=

No!

It's totally a no-no!

But it is about how you much you have improved!
Make sure there's improvement even if it's just a lil' bit.

It doesn't matter how slow you are as long as you are getting nearer to your goal.

Just keep moving and NEVER stop!

Remember that there's always a light at the end of the tunnel ^^

Yes people, 
always be thankful of what you have 
Treasure people around you and filll your days with love as it will lead you to endless happiness
because at the end of the day only 
happiness which is filled with love
will make you feel as if you own the world :)

As for those great/amazing memories,

I'll never forget all those awesome things that happened in 2011 and those memories will be my strength with hope that 2012 would be a better year than 2011 ^^

I've learnt that no matter how hard life is,
if you can endure it with patient,
good things will definitely happen...but just keep on believing it ♥ :)

Happy New Year people  :)

Strive for you dream and never let your guard down when something happens but indeed be a strong person and just do your thing! xD

Screw me!

R&D project is a compulsory project for Pre-U students.

It's a project which we have to work in pair ^^

So, my friend and I are working on a project for Mathematics T.

Basically, we are doing things related to it XD

gosh I'm so lazy to explain it =.=

Let's just straight to the point.

It's  not easy at all to do the paper work and I'm kind of lost half way

AAHHHHHHHHHHHH!

T.T I wanna cry now~~~~~

Well, it's actually not that bad. Still on the right track though but it's just that the research is so confusing @.@

Anyway, best of luck for both of us! Hwaiting! (^_^)O

Credits : photo belongs to this web

Dance Concept~~~^^

Me & my girls are preparing a dance performance for Teacher's Day 2012 and that's like 5-6 months to go. In the meantime, we are in the progress of discussing our concept. All of us kind of agreed to the cute+sexy concept. It's like half cute and half sexy. The story line for our dance is something like good girl gone bad. 

Originally, I wanted to dance to hip hop/free style but  most of the groups will be performing to this concept and I want something different. Besides, I can't seem to find any guys for our dance crew.

1. Hip Hop/Freestyle concept

So, it's no more on the list. T.T 

Well, there's plenty of concepts in my mind. No worries :D NEXT! hahah.

 My next concept would be kind of sexy but not too sexy. It's more like strong and aggressive dance steps but the problem is some of my girls worried that they could not fit the concept. 

2. Sexy but not too sexy concept

Gotta push aside this one as well.

That's not a  problem at all ^^ So, I moved on to the next concept which is cute. Hahah. I know. I'm kind of worried if I could not dance cutely for the whole 4-5 minutes. All this while I've been practicing to those aggressive dance steps and out of sudden I need to dance cutely. o(≧▽≦)  I do worried that dancing cutely would be kind of boring if  the dance steps or the song chosen does not fit and that will totally be a turn off.

3. Cute concept 

So, it's a no-no.

In the end, my and my girls decided for the concept to be cute+sexy but not too sexy.
(because we have rules to follow so I don't think so dancing sexily is allowed) Hahahah xD 

4. Cute+Sexy but not too sexy concept (Accepted!)

Anyway, I do hink this combination would be perfect.

To be honest, I do want to dance cutely xD hehe but couldn't find a group for it and now finally I've found you girls. Muaxxx girls. <3   

I do believe that my girls will rock the stage out.(≧∇≦)/ 

Let's do our best girls! ＼（＠￣∇￣＠）／

Cute...dentist?

Ever since I was a little kid, I have never ever liked dentist. I mean, I don't hate them but it's just that it's freaking me out when they put all those metal things into my mouth (whatever it is called =.= ) Anyway, I was supposed to go to dentist A but there were lots of patient. I reached there quite early around 10 something in the morning but I was the 19th patient. (=.=) So, they told me that I'll have to come again 3 hours later and that's like 1:30p.m. There's no way I'm going to wait that long I mean I've got some other things to do so  I ended up go to dentist B.

It was my first time there because usually for my whole life I've only been to dentist A. I can't deny that dentist A is very good and gentle but what can I do? There were too many people. Anyway, back to dentist B. I was kind of shocked that the place was big and nice (O.O) because from the outside it looks like JUST A NORMAL dentist but in the inside DAMN! THAT'S NICE and so comfortable ^^ I was so glad that I was the 4th patient. They have two dentist working there so I don't have to wait for so long. It was quite fast. But still basically I was kind of nervous =.= while waiting for my turn. Well, I went there just to check, clean and polish my teeth. Only That. But, yes, I was kind of worry because I don't know who the hell is the doctor. Is it a he or she and whatsoever. After waited for around 20 minutes, finally it's my turn and

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The dentist is kind of cute and gosh he is so gentle and sweet :) and I felt comfortable~^^  Honestly, in the beginning I look really stupid with that scared-of-dentist look =.= but still who cares~~~Hahah~~! I'm kind of interested in braces so as I was doing some research about it I found out about invisalign. It's quite interesting because no one knows that you're wearing braces as it is invisible xD Cool right? heheh Hurmm...I wonder where can I get those? >< I mean I know it's definitely at the dentist but which dentist got it? (?_?)